Famous Quote of the Week

"No one lives in the slums because they want to. It's like this train, it can only go were it's tracks take it." ~Cloud Strife~

It's A Way Of Life

i hate everything...
Thursday, May 27, 2004 01:34 p.m. MOOD: Fucked up: whit doesnt even pay attention to me anymore... she never holds me or kisses me anymore, nothing, not a damn thing any more... idk whats going on anymore... i dont know what to do. i think ill just go away for now, maybe then she'll miss me, maybe not... idont give a flying fuck anymore... maybe ill just go and lie down and die. maybe i should do that. idk. why did whit have to tell me she loved me?? why the fuck did she??? damnit!!! u all saw it, when i first wrote this thing, i told her not to tell me she loved me, but she did.i told her for the soul purpose of protecting my heart, but no, i did no good, in the end, it still hurts even more... i got to go now, i dont know where i will go, i dont think ill be at the libraray anymore, for now on at least... bye all... u 2 whit. i love u more then life can give.

wow, what a day...
Tuesday, May 25, 2004 08:07 p.m. MOOD: tired, bipolar: *sigh* ive really been tired and worried these days... i dont know why. whitney has soo much to do in her life its like she doesnt have time for me anymore... i guess i just have to deal with it. i dont feel like we are going out anymore, even though she says that we are. oh well, ill just wait and see what happens. anywho... i am gonna disect a pig soon, that ought to be fun. ^_^ and guess what happened today? we got evacuated from the school for the 3rd time! this time it was the guys working on the road. they were working on the pipes and they hit one that leaked out gas! >.>, the other times was 1) there was a mercury spill in the lab room and we had to wait outside for like 3 hours and such 2) then we had a fire and we had to go outside for like 2 hours and that was kinda cuel and 3) this time was the third. well other then that, every thing ish ok for now... i have to leave to texas soon, and i fear that when i come back, things will be worse...

oh man...
Friday, May 21, 2004 12:42 p.m. MOOD: Happy: wow... the weather was great today. ((lol)) actually we had a tornado warning here at the library and we had to go down into the basment. that sux, all we had to do was sit there and wait, and it wasnt even a damn tornando! X_X but it was sad in the begaining cause i had to sit across from these 2 little girls and the one started crying, not an annoying kind of screaming crying, but a soft sad kind of crying. it was really sad, but then again, i am a pansy. well, today i got to cut open an eyeball! (everyone clap for jomino) it was cuel, and i didnt get any gloves either! when i first cut into it, all this black fluid spewed out and made my lab partner scream, it was really funny. lol. i also brang in a banana to school and waved it around proclaiming that "This ish my banana!!!" and, "Hey Jamie, u want my banana?" ((i really need to grow up... ^_^;)) finally i wound up giving it to amanda. and i have to go so ill continue tomorrow.

work, its a way of life...
Thursday, May 20, 2004 12:20 p.m. MOOD: sad: Jimmy's funeral was this morning. i wasnt able to go because mi mean mom wouldnt let me go. it was sad, almost the hole school was gone today, all at jimmy's funeral. we watched a movie called "Joe Somebody" today in musica nova because our concert was last night. i already saw it anyway though @_@. anyway, we disected a sheep brain today and i got to do all the cutting! ^_^ it was very cuel! in the last week we have disected a kidney, a heart and now a brain!!! tonight ish my piano recital, i hope that i dont mess up. im playing 2 songs tonight, The Moonlight Sonata, and I've Gotta Catta or something stupid like that! >_< i dont like that song, it r gay. ((lol)) anywho, i really cant wait to see whitney tomorrow, that ish if she does get ungrounded at all. >.> i really hope that she does, i only have like 3 weeks left before i have to go to texas. *sigh* i hope to get back soon...

Watch as events unfold...
Wednesday, May 19, 2004 02:37 p.m. MOOD: (continues): (continues from Wednesday, May 19, 2004 01:50 p.m. because i made a boo boo. ^_^;) WOW... why do i always wait too damn long to update this thing? o_O *cough* anywho, alot of bad, and good, things have happened this week. first of all, its been raining for the last few days. why ish it that the weather tends to reflect the mood ur in? A kid named Jimmy Smith died on sunday, he's a kid that goes to my highschool. i only knew him for about 30 minutes, but even within that short time, he really showed me what a great guy he was... also, whitney has been having a really hard time right now and all i can do ish wonder if she still loves me or not.>__< man, all ive been doing lately ish thinking only of myself! why am i like this? im such a jerk! whitney, if ur reading this, plz forgive me! i know that all ive been doing ish thinking about myself when i say that i am trying to help you. but no longer! and im also sorry that i have to go to texas for so long... oh yeah! for all of u that do not know, i have to go to texas to visit my dad this summer. but heres the bad news, i have to be ther for 2 f****** months!!! ARGH! i mean, dont get me wrong, i want to see my dad, but i dont want to be there in the summer for two months and be without whitney! >____< why ish my life like this? *sigh* im complaining again, and no one likes to hear complaints. ... i really miss whitney....... blah....